Just the beginning...

     I found out we were pregnant when I was 7 weeks along. Nick was in Chicago. I was home trying to figure out either the best place to hide or when I was going to tell him. Even though we had known each other for years (he is my brother's best friend) we had not been dating very long. You would think one would be an emotional wreck, terrified at the prospect of having a child with no immediate plans of one whatsoever. Not me. Call me a freak but the hours I sat home alone that night were probably the most at peace hours I have ever experienced in my life. It was just me and my baby. Something in me shifted and settled and I felt whole.

     Then reality hit. Holy crap!!! I'm gonna have a baby!!! A BABY!!!! Who in their right mind would let me have one of those?! Fast forward to a few minutes later ...hmmm. This could be fun. This world could use a mini me...*insert Dr. Evil laugh. And that has been my outlook ever since.

 *19 week ultrasound. It's a boy! And he's puttin' up a peace sign :)

     I am now 30 weeks along and we are anxiously awaiting the arrival of our son, Kendrick John. He has already changed me and he isn't even here yet. I am still one of the most funny, completely inappropriate people I know ;) but I now have a sense of calm I thought I would never achieve. Zen if you will. Until I start craving a cinnamon sugar donut. Then all hell breaks loose. Not really. But I do get primal when it comes to dessert.

     I thought it would be interesting to share my experience. So far it hasn't been all sunshine and roses, but it has had some great moments. I will be forever teased about the time I transformed into a raging carnivore and wanted to do nothing but tear apart chunks of meat because I was so hungry and we had driven by a Buffalo Wild Wings.

*Me and Kendrick at 25 weeks :)

     So come along on my journey with me if you would like. I'm sure there will be something in these blog posts you can relate to :)