I have always been pretty good about being patient. Most of the time. Unless I am super excited about something and have the power to get it myself right away. Being pregnant is way different. For obvious reasons. Apparently, you can't just go out and get a baby at the drop of a hat, and sadly a stork doesn't just drop them off. You have to get through nine months of stuff. Ugh.
Even though this was an oops pregnancy I have been wanting babies, and dogs, and picket fences. Okay, maybe just babies and dogs. So once we found out we were pregnant I thought "Awesome! Here we go!" It did not take me long to realize I was not born with the glowing, serenity gene and love of being pregnant. Just thinking of those (lucky) women stirs my third trimester nausea.
The time has actually flown by. It is everything else making me want to just have this little guy already and get it over with. I am ready. I am waiting. Let's do this. Nine months is a long time to day dream and plan and freak out. I can only get his room ready so many times before it gets ridiculous. Come to think of it, it probably already has.
I feel as if I just roam the halls of my house and imagine what it is going to be like. I can't count the amount of times I just walk into his room and look around. And if I go through his clothes one more time, I may just call it what it is and become a self-certified creeper.
My silver lining is this. I have learned patience through being with Nick. He is a handful, in a fun and loving way. My eye sockets hurt some days from the excessive eye rolling. I have learned patience from anxiously awaiting the arrival of our son. I only have two and a half-ish weeks left until I can confirm my suspicion that he is, in fact, the most handsome little man ever. By the time he gets here, I will have the patience of a saint. Maybe then I will acquire that mythical glow I keep hearing about.
If anything, it will give me time to practice for when he gets old enough and both he and Nick take turns driving me crazy. I look forward to it :)
So I just tried to post a comment through my phone. It locked up or something so I will try to recall my thoughts! LOL! You ARE a saint for your patience with Nick. You know that I can relate. He has always been the most sensitive funny and kind kid I know....but yes he can try your patience!! Anyhow I feel blessed that you are in his life and understand him. That is what he needs so thank you!! I hope that he surrounds you with love and all the good stuff he should be doing!! :o) Anyhow - your patience in life is just beginning. I think every mom has "gone off the deep end" at some time or another, only to get back up and ride the train right back into mommyland. Been there, done that! Imagine FIVE teenagers at the same time. AYE YI YI!! (Remember the saying - "Now I understand why some animals eat their young? That always made me laugh!)I have survived all those years that tried my patience and I would not change a thing!! Keep that great sense of humor and find time for yourself...that's my advice whether you wanted it or not! LOL! Life just gets better and better! Perfect example, that handsome little boy soon to join our world. My heart is bursting with love for him already! I can't imagine what it will do when I see and hold him for the first time! You might have to call the paramedics!!(Love those men in uniforms) LOL! I'm pretty sure I will need some tissues too!! God Bless you Stacy! You are going to be one awesome mamma!! XOXO
ReplyDeleteThanks Maggie!! So much to look forward to! And we will have the paramedics on standby. Hot ones only allowed!! :) Can't wait!!!
ReplyDeleteIt is truly amazing how the saying "life as you know it is about to change". I remember sitting in Abbey's room doing the same exact thing you are doing now thinking the same thing. It truly does not hit you until you get home from the hospital, the only way I can describe it is, your feelings, the feeling your house felt, every little thing in every little aspect is just different now. Don't get me wrong, it's not a bad thing at all, I in fact find it quite fascinating. You'll know exactly what I mean in just a few weeks! Good luck to you, you will do great and don't stress about labor (I know this is the stage you start getting anxiety about it, you WILL BE FINE!) cherish every moment! I'll be thinking about you!
ReplyDeleteThanks Megan! I find my thoughts skipping right over labor and delivery. Lol. I see myself going into labor, then bringing Kendrick home. I think my mind is trying to protect me, haha! Lots to look forward to :)
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